Lost For Words
“Little by little, one travels far.”
-J.R.R. Tolkien
“At every fuck I gave you your shameless tongue come bursting out through your lips and if I gave you a bigger stronger fuck than usual fat dirty farts came spluttering out of your backside.”
-James Joyce
…At a famous seedy hole-in-the-wall, there was a conversation going on between celebrities, all who were abused in order to be where they are today. Frodo was on his quest to return the ring. But a few of his friends stopped him from doing so.
Sexy Hentai Goblin Girl:
"I read this crazy study yesterday. It's about 'internet induced psychosis.' One of the women reported that she hallucinated her internet boyfriend while touching her, and was diagnosed with a disorder. I couldn't help but wonder, maybe the internet really is an astral plane?"
Frodo:
"The internet does not exist, and we all have parasocial relationships with on another, and no real concrete friendship IRL. It's all a fantasy!"
Sexy Hentai Goblin Girl:
"The Idea that all these relationships might be totally psychological intrigues me."
David Gilmour:
"Listen you two. I talked about something similar with Waters almost exactly a year ago, ...this week! My proposition was that internet friendships are all essentially parasocial because one transmits stimuli to the other person in the form of an intangible persona mimicking one's real self, but receives the beneficial stimuli of attention as one's "real self." Thus, there are two parallel relationships. There is your persona and them, and their persona and you. It's why I recorded A Momentary Lapse of Reason and The Division Bell without Waters."
Frodo:
"All I can say is you have to visit The Sluts forum. This is perhaps the best work of ‘creative fiction’ with regards to the internet, parasocial realtionships, the persona, and how everything on the internet is a consentual, if not, horror story, fantasy. I'll be on my way then."
They all wanted him to stay. They all saw the same things Frodo saw. I’m not kidding.
Yet, Frodo climb many smokey mountains, got tomatoes thrown at him, and suddenly, he was nowhere again.
In a dark cave, Gollum rose from his slumber. Fordo was afraid.
Frodo:
"...So what happened actually with you and Sauron? Was it political difference, or in attitude?
Gollum crackled in his dark voice:
Gollum:
"Back when Sauron started The Sluts, I told him that I'm not gonna make him a mod, but he's free to come on, anytime. Eventually this became too much for him & instead of just leaving to do his own thing he kept getting more rude on stream and interrupting others in our discussion about foot fetishes. I had to mute him when he was rudely speaking about our fans. He quit the forum."
Frodo:
"I see. So it's an attitude difference. Plus assuming it was his forum, plus breaking manners, etc. Was it also drama related where certain users and gangs would come on and disturb other users and gossip? Like, slide into their DMs and send CGI nude photos of Juri from Street Fighter 4?"
Gollum:
"While the antisemitism considerably went down, you know, the constant worship of Nick Bougas memes and shit like that, I knew Sauron held views beyond the normal, like obsessing over Mussolini, and I thought, and still think, its important to bring people on who have views such as his so if not them, then at least the audience watching has an opportunity to consider different views. So while that part has gotten easier, I don't mind when audiences of other creators come on as long as they don't post threats, calls to violence, or endlessly spam. Wouldn't say its attitude difference as much as Sauron is having a different idea of what sexual roleplays he wanted to execute, but as I said to him right before he left, I never forced him to keep coming on."
Frodo:
"I'm actually very careful who I associate with. While it is fun to talk to those on the "right" subculture, aka wignats, it seems that the subculture tends to gossip or bicker if you don't feed into them. They call you "autistic," a "lolcow," even "insane" if you have subtle disagreements with them. I have an experience where in Sauron’s circle, it's all praise and being friendly, till on Discord or Telegram, they are slandering behind your back, etc. When addressed, they will go quiet. But on The Sluts, however, it’s all free. I’ve seen some pretty nasty revenge porn on there."
Gollum:
"The good thing about The Sluts, from what I recall, is I welcome people from different circles on, but have always maintained my own position instead of jumping on a particular bandwagon. There have been far more anti-left people obviously (as the recent streams would show, leftist guests are not the easiest to speak to). Whatever drama there exists beyond the interactions on the stream, and in our secret one-on-one sex chats, I don't really care about as people can always tell whatever they want to my face if they really want to. Otherwise there is no need to or desire to have control over all this other stuff. They are all dirty pigs who love glory holes, you know."
Frodo:
"Right. I am facing that dilemma where assuming one group is on your side, when really you are clown to them, and everything is fake. As if all of this is a fantasy with parasocial relationships. They are writing, in private, how much they want to abuse and use me. I am nothing but a toy to them. It’s like that’s normal in the adult industry. But on The Sluts, it’s walking a boundary like that actually want to kill me."
Gollum:
"I had a similar conversation the other day on the Chaturbate stream. Things get very tribal where there are certain views you hold as a net result of taking in all the tenants of the group so as not to be the odd man out. This is what creates the situation where bad ideas go unchallenged & anything constructive that comes from ‘the enemy’ is discarded. With all the information we are constantly processing mixed with our desire to fit in & be rewarded, we end up accepting certain things as fact and there is nobody around to challenge it. They all wanted to be raped. They want you, because they want to rape you. I know this. They don’t want to be normal."
Frodo:
"I could report it all to the police, with my experience on these petty death threats against me, and how it effects everyone. But will they ever believe? Will they say I’m the crazy one? That, in consideration, means we have to defend who we are, and go against bizarre accusations constantly, and weed out those who see us as punching bags. We are humans. We are not just another fuck toy for some bareback gay guy."
Gollum:
"I just wouldn't stress to much about the drama. The people doing such bullshit is beneath your time. You want to fuck them and show who rules."
Frodo:
"I know. It just has stalled me from my professional life and artistic creation. Constantly waking up with guilt, feeling hated, it boils down to depression where you have to get up and ignore the haters (as cliché as that sounds). I just feel like I can write something poetic right now about users who you think like you, but care less, or how there is no friendship on the internet, etc. It’s why I have to return this ring. I became this imaginary character to a drama that only wignats would worship. This kind of fucking stupid Eurocentric obsession tied to white nationalist mythology. I can’t be anymore, but instead, I’m a midget that perverted strangers want to abuse. I have to return the ring."
Gollum was not amused. He returned to the mud he slept under. Gollum was in telecommunication with Jason Reza Jorjani somewhere else. The same kind of power David Gilmour had with Sexy Hentai Goblin Girl (don’t ask why).
Frodo escaped without a scratch on him.
He climb hills, walked meadows, and rain spat over Frodo.
Eventually, at the end of all of this, and when The Nazgûl finally cornered him, Frodo got the attention of The Sluts. A year ago, Sam had a hard-on for Frodo. He constantly fantasized about having amazing gay sex with Frodo, but to no avail. Sam turned out to be working with Sauron.
Cornered, no where to go, Sam wanted Frodo this time.
Sam:
"I think you are an insane, crazy sadist. All you care about is exposing others of their sexuality, and not caring about other's privacy. We don't need anyone in the homonationalist movement like you in our ranks."
Frodo:
"You sent me a concerning message in April, about how you wanted me to join The Sluts. And then almost a year later, you sent me another letter how much you missed me. You know I couldn't go back into the club, realizing I would have to get fucked, or shut up. Then I found all those logs about how you wanted to tortured me, how you wanted to fuck my brains out, how you kept dropping my name like I'm your teddy bear. Sam, I have to return the ring. You are under the spell of Sauron."
Sam:
"I think it's funny how you didn't want me to message your wife, as if I was going to fuck her. You are such an insecure man. Why don't you fuck me?"
Frodo:
"Because you self-describe yourself as a 'bugchaser,' and dropped my name like a stalker. You loved my forum posts around politics, Dieter Rams, and whiteness. You ate that all up, and made you aroused. As if the only way you will find freedom, is that you have to follow me to the mountain, and drop the ring in together. You wish you were out of this.
Sam:
"I do have mental issues. And yeah subculture, whatever, like I purchase products like a normal person. Also you talk about The Sluts like a boomer. It's a bunch of people laughing at dumb shit."
…Sam's penis was getting erected. He was getting a hard-on about manipulation. That's what the chat was about. That’s what he wanted to do to Frodo.
Frodo:
"Why do you love to gossip and make shit up? I have the right to accuse you as being crazy for my own safety."
Sam:
"You literally sent me a photo, in The Sluts, of yourself crying, and talked about how you want to meet me in person, so that you can cry in front of me. Cry for me, bitch."
Frodo:
"Yeah man, because we are actually friends. You know that."
Sam's penis was erected.
Sam:
"Not anymore!"
Frodo:
"…What do you want from me?"
Sam was grinning.
Sam:
"You remind me of this kid with Asperger's who used to flick his tongue and make creepy faces at me. He wouldn't leave me alone no matter how many times I asked the teachers to make him stop. Do you have Asperger's? You better fucking have it. We all have a common experience with Frodo in our chat. Me and Charles are now friends because of your rage. We are friends because we fucking hate you. Turn your body around. I want to see that asshole."
Sam's so-called friend, Charles Coulombe, would send death threats against Frodo, insisting he rape if he was to ever expose the homonationalsit conspiracy theory. Charles was just as perverted and deranged as Sam.
Frodo:
"I am sorry, because I know you been acting this way for quite some time, and I pity the delusions and envy you have against others. You lovebomb everyone. You want everyone to join The Sluts. You just want an IRL friend. However, that does not mean I have to compromise to your cult, and to your mental illnesses."
Sam:
"You're not sorry, you're afraid and you know that I have a giant archive of shit about you, how you like to post drawling’s of little girls shaving their legs. Take a fucking hint and leave me alone. And no I don’t talk about you because people don't want to fucking hear about it. I’ll show the world those little girls to everyone. I’ll give YOU the gift too."
Frodo:
"What are you talking about? All you care about is slandering others who don't join The Sluts. Stop gaslighting me!"
Sam disappeared into thin air, just like The Nazgûl did, when Frodo took off the ring. It was only a matter of time Frodo would approach Sauron, the guy behind it all. The fever dreams became a reality.
Sauron opened up from the sky. He knew everything about Frodo. He knew about The Sluts, and was quite fond of all his little puppets.
Sauron:
"Frodo, you are a selfish cunt, someone with NPD, and a Asperger kid with hipster. Sam told me this, my Weasel friend told me this. All of this is true. You are a lolcow, and we sometimes watch your antics. Why do you want to return the ring anyway?"
Frodo:
"Because I have to. None of this is real. Your minions believe i’m an actual sadist, and I'm in the middle of this. All of you belong to the homonationalist conspiracy, and all of you have distorted your underlings in some way. I have to protect myself from actual crazy people. It's like what that Sexy Hentai Goblin Girl said, none of this real. You want to kill and rape Frodo, but it's all some ruse, some kind of fantasy you have. You claim I’m gay, but I’m not. You claimed I played myself as a false rape victim who couldn’t accept rejection. This is all a distortion. You are all working out of a sexual spite that I won’t give any of you a blowjob to advance your careers. Charles sucks off Sam the same way you suck off everyone."
Sauron refused to address Frodo as being a sexy little bitch for his army.
Frodo:
"Listen, even If we wiped the state clean, and they all tell me to go fuck myself, you know you just can't win."
...Sure, even if Frodo did return the ring, mentally ill people on The Sluts will still stalk other young white men to come into their chat, so they too can used and abused for their wignat club, all of it to attract Million Dollar Extreme rejects, Micheal DeForge conservatives, and Byung-Chul Han reactionaries afraid of any Marxist change.
Once the millennial yule is over, the orgy begins again.
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12/15/2022