The Medium of Sperm

"Under the horseshoe crab, and looking at its guts, we see things most people don't."

Pornography in 2022 is available at our fingertips.

Always there are glittering images distracting everyone from reality. The bombardment stops critical thinking. What are we viewing?

We are invested in images and concepts found in dark libraries. The monster Y'golonac hides behind the books, looking for his next victim. Once we consume in a dark medium, Y’golonac jumps at us. Sure, it’s just another story written by Ramsey Campbell, and why would Y’golonac kill us for reading Brian Aldiss or Hubert Selby Jr.?

We never question, for example, who makes porn, why they make it, and how it all has a profound influence on a generation’s sexuality. A sexual awakening happens in movies like Penda’s Fen, where realization about the self comes from inward desires, itself a reflection upon society as a whole.

We also see all of the retarded cultural norms clash with one another, and it creates a new rhizomic happenstance, but in need of a genealogical understanding.

We see all the Mia Khalifas, the Caitlyn Jenners, and Cardi Bs, and never blink an eye about degeneracy, or ask “What is so beautiful about them?”

Even the subconscious influences we forget influence young people. We could dissect Sam Hyde and his profound impact on anti-liberal comedy, or on Nicholas Fuentes and how he influences young Republicans.

But did you know of a random, innocent-looking white girl who takes pictures of herself using the medium of sperm? That is, sperm as a material or form for artistic purposes?

She calls herself, “Soogsx,” and dubs herself “ur favorite girl.”

…But why do we care? She’s just another photographer who works with the medium of sperm, assimilates her beauty towards the Japanese, and acts upon the American capitalist’s interest. Three rhizomes clashing at once!

It sounds so stupid. Why should I waste my time observing another porn star or another woman on the internet looking for fame and attention? 

A friend told me she’s another “gross thot.” 

Right. But what does it mean? Soogsx’s existence is unique within our zeitgeist. She is “white,” confusingly malaise, and fails to show any Eurocentric beauty about herself. 

Rather, it’s a white girl giving into “the Asiansexual desire.” She’s trying so hard to represent herself as a caricature of many anime symbolisms. On Twitter, she has over 300k followers. Soogsx could be considered the ideal beauty for American standards. And what is “American” at this point? Roleplaying the desire to be a sexy hentai woman in My Hero Academia?

She presents many pictures of herself, all with sperm dripping down her face. 

Just smiling in a soccer outfit.

In the bathroom.

Out in the forest.

In the bedroom.

All natural pictures of her. All of it, sperm, dripping on her face.

Honestly, I don’t find any of it arousing. Just because sperm is present, do I find it attractive? As a man, is it my sperm dripping on her face? Where is the arousal? What do I make of white slime? We have to see the image as a sign, something that Umberto Eco argues in A Theory of Semiotics.

I find it interesting that Soogsx wants us to investigate what “sperm” is, and how it’s on the body.

Sure, I could have used Sasha Grey as a better example. She’s more artsy and understands why KMFDM is a good band. But again, there are so many young women entering the adult industry, a dime a dozen, that all their lives are disregarded as nothing more than sex objects. We never get over that stigma.

My friend replies, “I find Soogsx repulsive.” 

It’s normal to say that. But understand, what do those pictures mean? Over one hundred thousand people all shared a desire for beauty. They all agree, that sperm is beautiful when it drips down the face of a normal white girl who’s into anime.

Look at it. Just another white girl, out in the forest, that has sperm dripping on her face. You can’t tell if someone raped her or not. It’s ambiguous! It’s like a Jackson Pollock painting, of random strings of color eroding a casual experience. Here, instead of paint flying, sperm is flying upon objects.

There are many kinks found on the internet. Men are jerking off on anime figurines together, or ejaculating on print photos for “cum tributes,” and in rare instances, ejaculating on living insects, taking photos of the crime, and uploading the snapshots onto 4chan. This means sperm is a symbol of eroticism. But still, what does it all mean? Could we detach the meaning from it? We would no longer find white slime arousing. Porn is a subjective mind game.

Ask, what are the secrets behind Soogsx’s existence, and these unconscious desires for truth?

She has many followers and exists on many platforms. What we get is the abstract pictures and videos of a person we don’t physically know, but every young man is connected to her activity. Everyone knows her but never brings it up in casual conversation. She is an influencer of desire.

We learn a lot about the truth from reading Sigmund Freud’s The Uncanny. In particular, on his passage of the memory of yellow dandelions. The color yellow, and “falling” upon a woman, leads to undiscovered sexuality, and interpretation of beauty. All of it, sexual innuendos. However crass they may be, lead to the truth about our desires.

Later, Jacques Lacan twisted Freud’s unconscious theories and presented them as legitimate theories about epistemology. Perhaps we desire communism because of how nice it sounds, but we never get it right. We must ask about the desire for communism, and less about what communism is. 

Now, I have crafted my motto about self-discovery. You don’t need Jordan B. Peterson to understand the following scenario:

“Imagine walking on a rocky beach on a cloudy day. This is a bad day to go on the beach, but to your surprise, you spot a lone horseshoe crab. Horseshoe crabs are scary by design. But with bravery, you decide to lift the horseshoe crab and look under it. You see it’s disgusting and alien-looking organs. Even though you decided to walk on the rocky beach, you found something interesting to discover. This truth is alien. It’s kind of scary too. 

Is there something new to discover under the horseshoe crab?”

In other words, we break out of “the matrix” when we discover the verboten. We don’t see porn. We see images and signs most normal people can’t bypass. 

Think of the motto, “Get under the crab!” It’s a real Freudian discovery on epistemology. 

And under that crab is a young girl named Soogsx. She believes she’s a living anime character, but fails to understand her reality. She pitches herself as an American capitalist. Having such bizarre tag lines like “30% off for the next 10 subs!”, “50% off ending today btw!!”, and “I eat gamer boys that watch anime.” What are these mixed desires about?

Over 50k likes over a simple image of sperm dripping down her face. 

What does this all mean?

For her, sperm is just a medium. It’s the same type of medium that Andres Serrano used in Piss Christ. Shit and piss cover Jesus Christ in a hazy, yellow world. Platonism does not exist with Serrano and Soogsx. We see piss, shit, and sperm over scared signs. 

However, that’s not stopping us from seeing the sincerity behind it all. 

We could say she’s another white girl declining society, sure. 

But ask again about all the hyberobjects around her and all the consumer objects she associates with. Normal people argue that we shouldn’t be investigating the medium of sperm. They just see shallow porn. They see the offense, but not the truth.

We see a meaningful image.

We also might see a cry for help, an “anime realist” subculture, and ultimately, a new type of normal person hidden behind the text. 

Why do young white men find her attractive? Does Soogsx represent a new role model for white women to emulate? If so, are white women becoming parodies of Japanese cartoons? That the Asiansexual desire is a superior desire, and young men away from the bourgeois suburban traditions, and break free into Eurasian Futurism? Perhaps a new era of “anime sexuality,” a superior standard of beauty surpassing all Eurocentric desires?

We have more questions about Soogsx and her pictures than the author herself. We deconstruct the image and see the real guts under the crab. 

“Get under that crab, boy!”

-pe

11-1-2022