My name is pilleater.
I am a man of letters.
For the sake of authenticity, I was born in Philadelphia, and I currently live in San Francisco.
My internet career as “pilleater” began on April 5th, 2009 on YTMND.com, where I spammed an art movement about Mr.Krabs. On any picture I could find through Google search, I traced out the head of Mr. Krabs, pasted his head on the found digital image, and added a shrilling sample of screaming, creating a new and deformed anti-meme. My video art on YTMND could be described as something out of Arngren.net.
I have created and advocated other internet niche ideologies in the tradition of YTMND meme-making, which includes “the AxA movement,” queer culture, post-neofolk, “avant-garde hate,” and anime-realism.
Other lowbrow and obscure topics include accelerationism, “hyberobjects,” electronic music, Lacanian sexual desires, George Miles, dark ecology, Asian feminism, “ethical sadism,” interracial Platonism, anti-liberalism, and Atari Teenage Riot’s Digital Hardcore movement.
My interests can best be described as a hybrid between the “Asian” (or, “The Other") and the analytical. I’m also inspired by Adam Parfrey's principles on “Aesthetic Terrorism,” whom I was able to talk to before he died. (His sister Juliet Parfrey called me a “robot.”)
During this meme-making time, I was an Asian Studies undergraduate in college. But then out of my eccentric research, I decided to write my Bachelor’s dissertation on the rise of the alternative right in 2016, before Donald Trump was elected as president. Later, I went to graduate school, and I majored in capital D “Design,” which I now hold an MA in. My Master’s was about “elegance” in board game design, and how design will become liberated once we create interactivity around living people and our political imagination.
To further understand where I am coming from, start with my article, “The Highest Priority,” and read on from there.
The liberal arts is underappreciated today because of its association with stupid students, who would rather become slaves for the American empire. Pedigrees thus become social symbols to gain access to job security in the white-collar circle. However, I reject this tradition and represent my intellectual value against the state, which tries to use me as an expandable “skill” for its economic downfall.
I have since published several books between 2016 and 2019. They included Almond Eyes, Baby Face, Trip, A Manifesto About Stalking Patrick Hyland, Queer Culture, and Ludism. You can buy these books here at this link.
I’m also obsessed with board game design and often will rant about my board game collection. Every week I am attending board game night with normies, soyjaks, or queers. And I have written over 198 reviews about board games I played, relating to the school of “Ludism.”
In addition, I collect synthesizers, drum machines, and modules for my Eurorack projects, and I make electronic music with them. You can listen to some of my music here, on YouTube, or check out my Discogs page.
I enjoy the punk-rock ethos, and I’m all about advocating straight-edge agitation, transgressive art, and egoist philosophy. Even if that means sliding into the opponent’s DMs and getting upfront and personal. Idiots need not apply.
For the record, I don’t care if they think I’m a “creep” or a “stalker.” These are make-believe bogeyman tales. I like to embrace the fact that I am “the bad guy” to construct a false reality for the liberal, just like The Gulf War. I am like the Radiohead song. I could also be a Negative Creep. “Hate” is rather used as an agitation device for artistic purposes. I say, embrace the semantic jail and cultural lingo that normies and liberals foist upon the “canceled.” If they think you are a “racist” or have a “fetish,” let them believe in their own fabricated evidence. They live in a semantic reality that stops them from questioning objective reality, which in turn, stops the public from pursuing the Socratic concept of “the good life.”
Straight Edge (sXe) and DIY are about supporting this good life and advocating ethical people who abstain from toxic culture. It also means taking down macho wignats, pretentious sex identity zealots, arrogant idol worshippers, liberal normies, subcultural plural pronoun robots, and ego trippers who break these rules. Straight Edge and DIY is for the innocent against the exploitative. Thus this project also belongs to “positive hardcore.”
“AxA” is a local variant for a POC community that is against the liberal state and hostile towards those who deny biracialism as an identity. No compromises! It’s also a graffiti thing too, where the cross is “bombed” along with the martini glass.
I don't create content. This is anti-content, or "dark" data. That includes every digital letter I write. My video art belongs to the demoscene, which I also associate with my interest in Amiga computers.
I film myself on YouTube, and I have compiled all the videos together into a single file. And yes, that’s over 500 videos! The best way to watch my videos is, to begin with the very first one on my YouTube channel and go from there to the latest in chronological order. You can learn how to download any of my videos on the internet, here.
Also, I started archiving my Twitter too. You can read over 19,000 plus tweets I wrote, here at this link. If you don’t know how to download and view my Twitter archive, I wrote this instructional guide for you.
H.P. Lovecraft was known as a “man of letters,” and wrote around 100,000 letters to friends and associates. In a digital age where the internet is considered edible as junk food, we forget we are writing important letters to everyone and ourselves. Instead of giving free work to Elon Musk or Mark Zuckerberg, we have a right to own and archive our written letters. Philosophers like Nicolás Gómez Dávila inspire us to capture our quick and witty thoughts at the moment, as Twitter is deliberately designed to make us forget anything we ever wrote past 3,000 tweets.
Please, download all my blog posts and videos, and store them on a USB stick, SD Card, or by any means. I’m an advocate of data hoarding.
There is a proxy WordPress site, “pilleaters,” that mirrors the blog posts on this site. The purpose of the mirror site is to copy the data from here and preserve it, in case the state tries to shut this website down for “hate speech” and I lose all my written work.
This website serves as a direct dialogue between two people; you and me. I am an anti-capitalist, an anti-liberal, and against modernity. The data here is contagious, and you should save and spread it to others.
We must, as a team together, accelerate the revolution.
This acceleration process requires your behalf to produce for yourself. However, I’m not advocating that you should ignore or be isolated from what I write. I’m against libertarianism and the concept of “the non-aggression pact,” as this only puts people into virtual pod homes like in The Matrix. You should read my work and learn from it. I’m here as an ethical and enriching tutor for you, and I’m not some hostile or condescending stooge against the values you cherish.
Some actual normies and NPCs believe it is unethical for you to tell them what to think or to give them paternal advice and polite redirection. The normie is in a "Pensée unique" semantic prison. This is imposed by liberalism and capitalism, creating the synthetic left and a mainstream culture around it. When you try to politely redirect and educate the stranger, they break down with a self-hate projection, and assume you are the one that is “upset,” because liberalism itself is condescending and evil towards them. Thus everyone should think the same, as they shut off all human communications, while they “eat the bugs and stay in the pods.” This is downright evil.
The hypocrisy is real and is in front of us. This is what we should be up against.
I argue that you should own the means of production and value self-production without meaning. It’s in total contradiction with the objective reality of “value” itself, but ultimately, an anti-liberal acceleration is required to undo the current philistine behavior, and reinstall a better society, putting civilization back on its tracks to human space exploration and beyond, and not through the decadent outcome of the technological singularity prison complex.
Production can only be understood through self-ownership. It’s up to you to understand your place in this decadent world, or about Kulturpessimismus. I want you to focus on desire, and see it as a rational force for good.
I’m only here to help you on that path.
If you feel like I have done something wrong to you in the past because I blocked you or said something mean about you are your associates, reach out to me by any means, give me a reason why you are mad, and I’ll unblock you and/or negotiate with you what we should accomplish in future conversations and projects.
…As a final word of disclaimer, I do enjoy Alain de Benoist’s concept of “Nouvelle Droite,” but this is an incredible misnomer about his work, and myself. I do not subscribe to a “right-wing” subculture, or a “left-wing” one. I have associations from both sides of the spectrum, and I listen carefully to what they have to write and say, and how it can contribute to humanity as a whole. Keep in mind that De Benoist was only trying to legitimize the voices of the controversial Vichy France regime in a postmodern diatribe. Unfortunately, there are still many issues with De Benoist’s concepts and conclusions, and like Raymond Aron’s idea of the “opium of the intellectuals," both come from a stubborn place of mind, where the purpose is to uphold the wealthy and careless French elite and downplay actual change. He later admitted this himself and does not want to acknowledge his work anymore as “right-wing,” but rather, as a hypothetical and cultural “right” that he has no responsibility over.
It’s also very similar to François Laruelle’s reactionary and inverted idea of “non-philosophy,” where there is a philosophy against the school of philosophy. Both De Benoist and Aron come from that Laruelleian French tradition of being contrarian for the sake of it. Therefore, I am not right-wing by any means and reject all subcultures that claim to be “right,” even as a so-called cultural mode of expression. With all that postmodern and philosophical jargon, one cannot make swift conclusions by using such fancy rhetoric, as it all becomes a fuzzy excuse to justify irrational and personal choices without clarity of the self.
What this Substack is about:
Articles around the 2k word count or more that are worth your time.
Journalist news reports.
The latest and original audio recordings and interviews, conducted by me.
Artistic and political statements.
Transcripts for public speaking events.
“Design,” as a concept, artistic intention, and philosophy.
The latest on what this “pilleater” person is doing.
Links to other websites that feature my work.
…And also posting when I feel like it. Being humble means being patient.
The YTMND & demoscene philosophy states that art in the digital age becomes data, and constitutes three elements, isolated or together:
Sound - Music, vibrations in the air, noise, communication, a lecture, etc.
Image - A representation of an external form, visuals, animation, graphics, beauty, etc.
Text - Written or printed work, language, logic, meaning, purpose, knowledge, etc.
Of course, the capitalist regime only sees profit within the means of production, and it construes subjective value as a form of profit. The corporations see art as nothing more than “content,” and downplay the chaotic energy of data, or production without profit. The “value” of sound, image, or text should not be synthesized together as “content,” as this agenda destroys the philosophy of art, and the need for human expression and intellect without constraints. True value provides nothing for capitalism. Data is free without value, and art on the internet is ever-expanding with the help of technology. Art is nothing but data on the internet and through the computer.
An artist can only focus on one area of sound, image, or text. The best art tends to have all three together, or two. I would rank text as the highest form of human art, superior to sound and image, as both require text to strengthen their meaning. Always sound or image alone requires text to create a lasting legacy. With text, we might not hear or see anything at first, but an advanced textual reading will eventually do this for us.
There is a fourth element that goes beneath all three, and it’s called Design. Design is an artistic form expressed exclusively in a non-physical arrangement, plan, function, program, or thought, and like running software, the art is expressed only when the rules are understood and executed by humans, and for humans. The realm of board game design is a great example of this spiritual phenomenon. The creation of an interface can also be understood through design, but it needs to be human-centric, and not between AI, a robot, or a machine, as design is only expressive between humans, and not the autos-self. To put it bluntly, interactivity is between two humans, and not with a non-human. Design is the art of interactivity.
I now present my favorite categories of sound, image, text, and design. In a way, I am curating my canon of modernity. Eclecticism is the practice of deriving ideas, styles, or tastes from a broad and diverse range of sources. All sources relate to one another and reflect upon the rhizomes that intersect with the sound, image, and text. The following can be juxtaposed together to create a new form of modernity or create a new singularity out of it. Everything is relatable and encompasses a paradigm of anti-liberalism. This is my version of the Nurse with Wound list.
Talk Talk producer Tim Friese-Greene once said that “creating art is a lot like decorating a Christmas tree, and then taking the tree away.” (See the Talk Talk documentary film, In a Silent Way.)
This syllabus should provide you with an above-average education in this decadent world. Please reach out to me if you want to further discuss the importance of these figures in sound, image, text, and design.
My favorite musical acts are:
KMFDM / Sascha Konietzko
PIG (Raymond Watts)
En Esch / Slick Idiot
Atari Teenage Riot
(Everything on Digital Hardcore Recordings)
David Sylvian (Japan)
Realicide (Robert Inhuman)
The The (Matt Johnson)
Sandii & the Sunsetz (Sandii)
Skinny Puppy / Nivek Ogre
Everything But The Girl / Tracey Thorn / Ben Watt
Atom™ / Uwe Schmidt
Christoph de Babalon
Alpha Team / Alpha 1 (Andrew Adams)
Fantastic Plastic Machine
The Mad Capsule Markets
Malice Mizer / Moi dix Mois
Mouse on Mars
Fuckhead / Wipeout
Guy / Teddy Riley
MC Skat Kat
Bratt Sinclaire (Andrea Leonardi)
Federico Di Bonaventura
Joy Electric (Ronnie Martin)
The Human League
Tears For Fears
Pedro The Lion
Five Iron Frenzy
Reggie and the Full Effect
The Stray Cats
Sigue Sigue Sputnik
Gay Cat Park
Boards of Canada
Plastikman (Richie Hawtin)
A Guy Called Gerald
Kid N’ Play
Mochipet (David Y. Wang)
Tackhead / Keith LeBlanc / Doug Wimbish
Dead Can Dance
Art of Noise / Trevor Horn
Sixth Comm (Patrick Leagas)
My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult
Deutsch Amerikanische Freundschaft
Alien Sex Fiend
Man From Uranus
Rodney Alan Greenblatt
Stereolab / McCarthy
SSQ (Stacey Q)
Book of Love
The Sisters of Mercy
Clan of Xymox
Seven Red Seven
Cause & Effect
The Echoing Green
Jacob Graham (The Promise Book)
Underworld / Freur
Celebrate The Nun (Scooter)
Tones on Tail
Chiara De Pieri
50 Ways To Kill Me (Jay Decay)
Breakdancing Ronald Reagan
Hentai Cum Dungeon
Null Object (Nathan Elliot-Watson)
A Boy Named Thor
(Anything on Unread Records)
(Anything on Popgun Recordings)
Raoul De La Cruz
Arab on Radar
Acid House Kings
Ceephax (Andy Jenkinson)
Pink Floyd (without Waters)
Mad At The World
They Might Be Giants
…And a bunch of other great records I can’t think of at the moment…
My favorite artists and cartoonists are:
Martin F. Emond
Jack Ralph Cole
Alastair (Baron Hans Henning Voigt)
Seth (Gregory Gallant)
Dodo (Dörte Clara Wolff)
Camille Rose Garcia
Rodney Alan Greenblat (again)
Tamara De Lempicka
Richard Edmund Williams
Shag (Josh Agle)
Coop (Chris Cooper)
John R. Dilworth
Jean De Bosschere
Milton Glaser (he signed my MA degree before he died).
…And a bunch of other artists that slip through my mind when I see the image in my head…
My favorite authors and writers are:
R. A. Lafferty
Ron Silliman (but his son Colin is much cooler and influential)
Comte de Lautréamont
Jorge Luis Borges
Alain de Botton
Hubert Selby Jr.
Malcolm Alan Bennett
Marquis de Sade
Frederik L. Schodt
John Frederick Lange Jr.
Alain De Benoist
Nicolás Gómez Dávila
Jason Reza Jorjani
Richard D. Wolff
Alexander R. Galloway
Arthur R. Butz
Eric S. Raymond
Steven Heller (he taught me in graduate school)
Rev. Leroy Jenkins
Martin H. Greenberg
François de La Rochefoucauld
Jean Anthelme Brillat-Savarin
James Joyce, but only his novel Finnegans Wake.
…And a bunch of other writers that I have read throughout the years and only remember the name comes up through wisdom and citation…
My favorite game designers and interactive artists are:
Alan R. Moon
David "Zeb" Cook
(Everyone who contributed to the world of Slobbovia)
The Boston Logical Society, or W. W. Swilling
Joli Quentin Kansil
Allan B. Calhamer
Dave Williams II
David R. Megarry
Steve Jackson (The Southern one)
Frederick "Fred" Paul Funk III (Fred’s World)
Steve & Phil Kendall
Jeffrey Neil Bellinger
Robin D. Laws
Reiner Knizia (early)
Corné van Moorsel
Wil Dijkstra & Ben van Dijk
Terence Peter Donnelly
H. Jean Vanaise
George S. Parker
…and many other unknown designers of our century…
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