Hello!

My name is pilleater.

I am a man of letters.

The purpose of this website is to collect and present all of my writing and published articles. You can discover my work on the following pages: Art & Culture, Book, Podcasts, Links.

For the sake of authenticity, I was born in Philadelphia, and I currently live in San Francisco.

My internet career as “pilleater” began on April 5th, 2009 on YTMND.com, where I spammed an art movement about Mr.Krabs. On any picture I could find through Google search, I traced out the head of Mr. Krabs, pasted his head on the found digital image, and added a shrilling sample of screaming, creating a new and deformed anti-meme. My video art on YTMND could be described as something out of Arngren.net.

The name “pilleater” is a joke on the username “inkdrinker,” and predates any “red pilled” or reactionary thought or reference around The Matrix.

I have created and advocated other internet niche ideologies in the tradition of YTMND meme-making, which includes “the AxA movement,” queer culture, post-neofolk, “avant-garde hate,” and anime-realism.

Other lowbrow and obscure topics include accelerationism, “hyberobjects,” electronic music, Lacanian sexual desires, George Miles, dark ecology, Asian feminism, “ethical sadism,” interracial Platonism, anti-liberalism, and Atari Teenage Riot’s Digital Hardcore movement.

My interests can best be described as a hybrid between the “Asian” (or, “The Other") and the analytical. I’m also inspired by Adam Parfrey's principles on “Aesthetic Terrorism,” whom I was able to talk to before he died. (His sister Juliet Parfrey called me a “robot.”)

During this meme-making time, I was an Asian Studies undergraduate in college. But then out of my eccentric research, I decided to write my Bachelor’s dissertation on the rise of the alternative right in 2016, before Donald Trump was elected as president. Later, I went to graduate school, and I majored in capital D “Design,” which I now hold an MA in. My Master’s was about “elegance” in board game design, and how design will become liberated once we create interactivity around living people and our political imagination.

To further understand where I am coming from, start with my article, “The Highest Priority,” and read on from there.

The liberal arts is underappreciated today because of its association with stupid students, who would rather become slaves for the American empire. Pedigrees thus become social symbols to gain access to job security in the white-collar circle. However, I reject this tradition and represent my intellectual value against the state, which tries to use me as an expandable “skill” for its economic downfall.

I have since published several books between 2016 and 2019. They included Almond Eyes, Baby Face, Trip, A Manifesto About Stalking Patrick Hyland, Queer Culture, and Ludism. You can buy these books here at this link.

I’m also obsessed with board game design and often will rant about my board game collection. Every week I am attending board game night with normies, soyjaks, or queers. And I have written over 198 reviews about board games I played, relating to the school of “Ludism.”

In addition, I collect synthesizers, drum machines, and modules for my Eurorack projects, and I make electronic music with them. You can listen to some of my music here, on YouTube, or check out my Discogs page.

I enjoy the punk-rock ethos, and I’m all about advocating straight-edge agitation, transgressive art, and egoist philosophy. Even if that means sliding into the opponent’s DMs and getting upfront and personal. Idiots need not apply.

For the record, I don’t care if they think I’m a “creep” or a “stalker.” These are make-believe bogeyman tales. I like to embrace the fact that I am “the bad guy” to construct a false reality for the liberal, just like The Gulf War. I am like the Radiohead song. I could also be a Negative Creep. “Hate” is rather used as an agitation device for artistic purposes. I say, embrace the semantic jail and cultural lingo that normies and liberals foist upon the “canceled.” If they think you are a “racist” or have a “fetish,” let them believe in their own fabricated evidence. They live in a semantic reality that stops them from questioning objective reality, which in turn, stops the public from pursuing the Socratic concept of “the good life.”

Straight Edge (sXe) and DIY are about supporting this good life and advocating ethical people who abstain from toxic culture. It also means taking down macho wignats, pretentious sex identity zealots, arrogant idol worshippers, liberal normies, subcultural plural pronoun robots, and ego trippers who break these rules. Straight Edge and DIY is for the innocent against the exploitative. Thus this project also belongs to “positive hardcore.”

“AxA” is a local variant for a POC community that is against the liberal state and hostile towards those who deny biracialism as an identity. No compromises! It’s also a graffiti thing too, where the cross is “bombed” along with the martini glass.

I don't create content. This is anti-content, or "dark" data. That includes every digital letter I write. My video art belongs to the demoscene, which I also associate with my interest in Amiga computers.

I film myself on YouTube, and I have compiled all the videos together into a single file. And yes, that’s over 500 videos! The best way to watch my videos is, to begin with the very first one on my YouTube channel and go from there to the latest in chronological order. You can learn how to download any of my videos on the internet, here.

Also, I started archiving my Twitter too. You can read over 19,000 plus tweets I wrote, here at this link. If you don’t know how to download and view my Twitter archive, I wrote this instructional guide for you.

H.P. Lovecraft was known as a “man of letters,” and wrote around 100,000 letters to friends and associates. In a digital age where the internet is considered edible as junk food, we forget we are writing important letters to everyone and ourselves. Instead of giving free work to Elon Musk or Mark Zuckerberg, we have a right to own and archive our written letters. Philosophers like Nicolás Gómez Dávila inspire us to capture our quick and witty thoughts at the moment, as Twitter is deliberately designed to make us forget anything we ever wrote past 3,000 tweets.

Please, download all my blog posts and videos, and store them on a USB stick, SD Card, or by any means. I’m an advocate of data hoarding.

There is a proxy WordPress site, “pilleaters,” that mirrors the blog posts on this site. The purpose of the mirror site is to copy the data from here and preserve it, in case the state tries to shut this website down for “hate speech” and I lose all my written work.

This website serves as a direct dialogue between two people; you and me. I am an anti-capitalist, an anti-liberal, and against modernity. The data here is contagious, and you should save and spread it to others.

We must, as a team together, accelerate the revolution.

This acceleration process requires your behalf to produce for yourself. However, I’m not advocating that you should ignore or be isolated from what I write. I’m against libertarianism and the concept of “the non-aggression pact,” as this only puts people into virtual pod homes like in The Matrix. You should read my work and learn from it. I’m here as an ethical and enriching tutor for you, and I’m not some hostile or condescending stooge against the values you cherish.

Some actual normies and NPCs believe it is unethical for you to tell them what to think or to give them paternal advice and polite redirection. The normie is in a "Pensée unique" semantic prison. This is imposed by liberalism and capitalism, creating the synthetic left and a mainstream culture around it. When you try to politely redirect and educate the stranger, they break down with a self-hate projection, and assume you are the one that is “upset,” because liberalism itself is condescending and evil towards them. Thus everyone should think the same, as they shut off all human communications, while they “eat the bugs and stay in the pods.” This is downright evil.

The hypocrisy is real and is in front of us. This is what we should be up against.

I argue that you should own the means of production and value self-production without meaning. It’s in total contradiction with the objective reality of “value” itself, but ultimately, an anti-liberal acceleration is required to undo the current philistine behavior, and reinstall a better society, putting civilization back on its tracks to human space exploration and beyond, and not through the decadent outcome of the technological singularity prison complex.

Production can only be understood through self-ownership. It’s up to you to understand your place in this decadent world, or about Kulturpessimismus. I want you to focus on desire, and see it as a rational force for good.

I’m only here to help you on that path.

Feel free to directly contact me on Telegram, Twitter, or by any means of direct messaging. I want to have a conversation with you. Address all your concerns and questions to me.

If you feel like I have done something wrong to you in the past because I blocked you or said something mean about you are your associates, reach out to me by any means, give me a reason why you are mad, and I’ll unblock you and/or negotiate with you what we should accomplish in future conversations and projects.

…As a final word of disclaimer, I do enjoy Alain de Benoist’s concept of “Nouvelle Droite,” but this is an incredible misnomer about his work, and myself. I do not subscribe to a “right-wing” subculture, or a “left-wing” one. I have associations from both sides of the spectrum, and I listen carefully to what they have to write and say, and how it can contribute to humanity as a whole. Keep in mind that De Benoist was only trying to legitimize the voices of the controversial Vichy France regime in a postmodern diatribe. Unfortunately, there are still many issues with De Benoist’s concepts and conclusions, and like Raymond Aron’s idea of the “opium of the intellectuals," both come from a stubborn place of mind, where the purpose is to uphold the wealthy and careless French elite and downplay actual change. He later admitted this himself and does not want to acknowledge his work anymore as “right-wing,” but rather, as a hypothetical and cultural “right” that he has no responsibility over.

It’s also very similar to François Laruelle’s reactionary and inverted idea of “non-philosophy,” where there is a philosophy against the school of philosophy. Both De Benoist and Aron come from that Laruelleian French tradition of being contrarian for the sake of it. Therefore, I am not right-wing by any means and reject all subcultures that claim to be “right,” even as a so-called cultural mode of expression. With all that postmodern and philosophical jargon, one cannot make swift conclusions by using such fancy rhetoric, as it all becomes a fuzzy excuse to justify irrational and personal choices without clarity of the self.

What this Substack is about:

Articles around the 2k word count or more that are worth your time.
Art criticism.
Polemics.
Meditations.
Observations.
Creative writing.
Collage art.
Drafts.
Unfinished thoughts.
Freethought.
Journalist news reports.
Original research.
The latest and original audio recordings and interviews, conducted by me.
Complaints.
Asian studies.
Artistic and political statements.
Transcripts for public speaking events.
Improvised mediations.
“Design,” as a concept, artistic intention, and philosophy.
The latest on what this “pilleater” person is doing.
Links to other websites that feature my work.

…And also posting when I feel like it. Being humble means being patient.

The YTMND & demoscene philosophy states that art in the digital age becomes data, and constitutes three elements, isolated or together:

Sound - Music, vibrations in the air, noise, communication, a lecture, etc.

Image - A representation of an external form, visuals, animation, graphics, beauty, etc.

Text - Written or printed work, language, logic, meaning, purpose, knowledge, etc.

Of course, the capitalist regime only sees profit within the means of production, and it construes subjective value as a form of profit. The corporations see art as nothing more than “content,” and downplay the chaotic energy of data, or production without profit. The “value” of sound, image, or text should not be synthesized together as “content,” as this agenda destroys the philosophy of art, and the need for human expression and intellect without constraints. True value provides nothing for capitalism. Data is free without value, and art on the internet is ever-expanding with the help of technology. Art is nothing but data on the internet and through the computer.

An artist can only focus on one area of sound, image, or text. The best art tends to have all three together, or two. I would rank text as the highest form of human art, superior to sound and image, as both require text to strengthen their meaning. Always sound or image alone requires text to create a lasting legacy. With text, we might not hear or see anything at first, but an advanced textual reading will eventually do this for us.

There is a fourth element that goes beneath all three, and it’s called Design. Design is an artistic form expressed exclusively in a non-physical arrangement, plan, function, program, or thought, and like running software, the art is expressed only when the rules are understood and executed by humans, and for humans. The realm of board game design is a great example of this spiritual phenomenon. The creation of an interface can also be understood through design, but it needs to be human-centric, and not between AI, a robot, or a machine, as design is only expressive between humans, and not the autos-self. To put it bluntly, interactivity is between two humans, and not with a non-human. Design is the art of interactivity.

I now present my favorite categories of sound, image, text, and design. In a way, I am curating my canon of modernity. Eclecticism is the practice of deriving ideas, styles, or tastes from a broad and diverse range of sources. All sources relate to one another and reflect upon the rhizomes that intersect with the sound, image, and text. The following can be juxtaposed together to create a new form of modernity or create a new singularity out of it. Everything is relatable and encompasses a paradigm of anti-liberalism. This is my version of the Nurse with Wound list.

Talk Talk producer Tim Friese-Greene once said that “creating art is a lot like decorating a Christmas tree, and then taking the tree away.” (See the Talk Talk documentary film, In a Silent Way.)

This syllabus should provide you with an above-average education in this decadent world. Please reach out to me if you want to further discuss the importance of these figures in sound, image, text, and design.

SOUND

My favorite musical acts are:

KMFDM / Sascha Konietzko
PIG (Raymond Watts)
En Esch / Slick Idiot
Atari Teenage Riot
Alec Empire
(Everything on Digital Hardcore Recordings)
Mark Hollis
Xiu Xiu
Mitski
David Sylvian (Japan)
Realicide (Robert Inhuman)
Talk Talk
The The (Matt Johnson)
Sandii & the Sunsetz (Sandii)
Skinny Puppy / Nivek Ogre
Nitzer Ebb
.O.rang
ONO
Yukihiro Takahashi
Yoshinori Sunahara
Steve Jansen
Ursula 1000
Everything But The Girl / Tracey Thorn / Ben Watt
Mr. Oizo
Mr. Scruff
Atom™ / Uwe Schmidt
Akufen
Funkstörung
Placebo
Shizuo
The Shizit
EC8OR
DHC Meinhof
Bastards United
Christoph de Babalon
Killout Trash
Melt-Banana
Shonen Knife
Cibo Matto
Pizzicato Five
Miwa Gemini
Bis
Manda Rin
Looper
Blonde Redhead
Denki Groove
Deee-Lite
Towa Tei
Alpha Team / Alpha 1 (Andrew Adams)
Fantastic Plastic Machine
Kevin Aviance
DJ Gomi
Phil Fuldner
Sneaker Pimps
Keli Ali
Satoshi Tomiie
Miwa Gemini
Schwein
Winston Tong
X Japan
Buck-Tick
The Mad Capsule Markets
Malice Mizer / Moi dix Mois
Tim Sköld
Mouse on Mars
Psyclon Nine
Fuckhead / Wipeout
Texas Faggott
Guy / Teddy Riley
Heavy D
MC Skat Kat
Canibus
X Clan
Jungle Brothers
ABBA
Jerry Galeries
Benjamin Diamond
Alan Braxe
Bratt Sinclaire (Andrea Leonardi)
Alberto Contini
Giancarlo Pasquini
Michael Fortunati
Federico Di Bonaventura
Mauro Farina
Giuliano Crivellente
Florian Fadinger
Laurent Gelmetti
Aqua
Toy-Box
Crispy
E-Rotic
Joy Electric (Ronnie Martin)
Starflyer 59
Basement Jaxx
Apoptygma Berzerk
Depeche Mode
Erasure
The Human League
Tears For Fears
Love
Nick Drake
Vashti Bunyan
Pedro The Lion
MxPx
Five Iron Frenzy
Reggie and the Full Effect
The Stray Cats
Brain Setzer
The B-52’s
Sigue Sigue Sputnik
Trans-X
Treasure Mammal
Green Jellö
Gay Cat Park
Big Butter
Whitehouse
Boards of Canada
christ.
Plastikman (Richie Hawtin)
A Guy Called Gerald
Kid N’ Play
Kid 606
Aux 88
Mochipet (David Y. Wang)
Tackhead / Keith LeBlanc / Doug Wimbish
Dead Can Dance
Enigma
Mars Lasar
Art of Noise / Trevor Horn
Sixth Comm (Patrick Leagas)
My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult
Excessive Force
Deutsch Amerikanische Freundschaft
Alien Sex Fiend
Ozric Tentacles
Hawkwind
Gryphon
Snog
Missing Foundation
Missing Persons
Merzbow
Linekraft
Ikue Mori
Sonic Boom
Macula Dog
Anklepants
Cel Genesis
Man From Uranus
Uwe Tschiesche
Rodney Alan Greenblatt
Stereolab / McCarthy
Massive Attack
SSQ (Stacey Q)
Cetu Javu
Camouflage
Blancmange
Book of Love
Elegant Machinery
Neuropa
The Sisters of Mercy
The Chameleons
Clan of Xymox
Visage
Iris
Andrew Sega
Seven Red Seven
Psykosonik
Diorama
Hubert Kah
Noel
The Beloved
Information Society
Cause & Effect
Faith Assembly
B! Machine
The Echoing Green
Red Flag
Wolfsheim
Neuropa
Anything Box
Jacob Graham (The Promise Book)
Underworld / Freur
Celebrate The Nun (Scooter)
Tones on Tail
Baths
Blank Banshee
DJ Koze
Airborn Audio
Soul Coughing
Grace Slick
Strawberry Switchblade
BaBe
Two Two
H.O.T.
Sechs Kies
S.E.S.
BoA
Crayon Pop
Deux
Norway
Clara Moroni
Elena Gobbi
Chiara De Pieri
Francesca Contini
50 Ways To Kill Me (Jay Decay)
Breakdancing Ronald Reagan
Hentai Cum Dungeon
Null Object (Nathan Elliot-Watson)
Fine China
A Boy Named Thor
(Anything on Unread Records)
Chris Fischer
(Anything on Popgun Recordings)
Raoul De La Cruz
Arab on Radar
Pens
Close Lobsters
The Cannanes
Acid House Kings
Ceephax (Andy Jenkinson)
Rocketship
The Lyres
The Shaggs
Captain Beefheart
Yes
Pink Floyd (without Waters)
Family Pet
Oscillator X
Mickey Hart
Mad At The World
DC Talk
Todd Edwards
Brian Ice
Ken Laszlo
Eddy Huntington
Miles Davis
Duke Ellington
Maurice Ravel
Giacinto Scelsi
Franco Donatoni
Neu!
Can
They Might Be Giants
Noah Creshevsky
Negativland
…And a bunch of other great records I can’t think of at the moment…

IMAGE

My favorite artists and cartoonists are:

Mineo Maya
Martin F. Emond
Simon Bisley
Brendan McCarthy
Brett Ewins
Sam Kieth
Aidan Hughes
Jack Ralph Cole
Arshile Gorky
Vasily Kamensky
Joan Miró
Josef Albers
Jesse LeDoux
Peter Max
René Magritte
Takehiko Inoue
Hideshi Hino
Alastair (Baron Hans Henning Voigt)
Yue Minjun
Carl Barks
Yoshitomo Nara
Sol LeWitt
Gerhard Richter
Oli Sorenson
Bridget Riley
Liam Gillick
Peter Halley
James Turrell
Dan Flavin
Seth (Gregory Gallant)
Ellsworth Kelly
Richard Hamilton
Dodo (Dörte Clara Wolff)
George Grosz
Stuart Davis
Aubrey Beardsley
Harry Clarke
Ron Cobb
Sergio Aragonés
Jim Cummins
Danny Antonucci
Camille Rose Garcia
Rodney Alan Greenblat (again)
David Horvath
Mike Dargas
Junko Mizuno
Jared French
Tamara De Lempicka
Jim Woodring
John Blanche
Alex Kirwan
Richard Edmund Williams
Doug TenNapel
Kurt Halsey
Oliver Hibert
Alex Toth
Sam Henderson
Raymond Peynet
M.C. Escher
Charles Addams
Lynne Naylor
Tim Biskup
Seonna Hong
Gary Baseman
Gene Deitch
Jim Flora
Alvin Lustig
Shag (Josh Agle)
Coop (Chris Cooper)
Scott Wills
Mary Blair
Ralph Barton
Doug Sneyd
Basil Wolverton
Katie Rice
John Kricfalusi
John R. Dilworth
Trevor Brown
Lionel Maunz
Tony Viramontes
Motomichi Nakamura
Jean De Bosschere
Adrian Tomine
Meaghan Dunn
Lela Lee
Michelle Lam
Jim Houser
Mike Perry
Ben Jones
Gérard Mathieu
George Orrimbe
Patrick Nagel
James Marsh
Storm Thorgerson
Paul Scheerbart
Friedensreich Hundertwasser
Antonio Sant'Elia
Keith Haring
Bill Beckley
Milton Glaser (he signed my MA degree before he died).
Vince Collins
Alex Pardee
Phil Foglio
Larry Clark
Dave Gibbons
Mire Lee
Amanda MacKinnon
Lorenz Stör
Margaret Keane
Marie Laurencin
Pál Pusztai
Isamu Noguchi
Ruth Asawa
Mitsuru Nakamura
Takato Yamamoto
Chiaki Harada
…And a bunch of other artists that slip through my mind when I see the image in my head…

TEXT

My favorite authors and writers are:

Dennis Cooper
Jim Goad
Adam Parfrey
Shaun Partridge
Peter Sotos
Gene Wolfe
R. A. Lafferty
Brian Aldiss
Fredric Brown
Sigmund Freud
Isaac Asimov
Greg Egan
Fred Saberhagen
Roger Zelazny
Roland Johnson
Ron Silliman (but his son Colin is much cooler and influential)
Jean Cocteau
Raymond Queneau
Comte de Lautréamont
Georges Perec
Gustave Flaubert
Marcel Proust
Jorge Luis Borges
Stéphane Mallarmé
Alain de Botton
Robinson Jeffers
Hubert Selby Jr.
Hart Crane
Mike Royko
Malcolm Alan Bennett
Paul Zindel
Betsy Byars
Joan Lindsay
Lois Duncan
Robert Cormier
Edmund White
Andrew Holleran
Marquis de Sade
Yukio Mishima
Haruki Murakami
Yasunari Kawabata
Tamiki Hara
Kenzaburō Ōe
Edward Seidensticker
Frithjof Schuon
Ananda Coomaraswamy
Alan Watts
Bruce Cumings
Donald Keene
Jared Taylor
Frederik L. Schodt
B.R. Myers
Alex Kerr
René Girard
Vilém Flusser
Dick Hebdige
Martin Gardner
Chris Crawford
Miller Puckette
Don Norman
Seth Giddings
John Frederick Lange Jr.
Kevin Lynch
Richard Garfield
Andy Looney
Ian Livingstone
Charles Taylor
György Lukács
Paul Cockshott
Antonio Negri
Maurice Bardèche
Robert Brasillach
Lucien Rebatet
Alain De Benoist
Nicolás Gómez Dávila
Alain Badiou
François Laruelle
Gabriel Rockhill
Sianne Ngai
Paul Fussell
Zygmunt Bauman
Max Stirner
Bob Black
Larry McCaffery
Harold Jaffe
Aaron Clarey
Jason Reza Jorjani
Aleksandr Dugin
Caleb Maupin
Richard D. Wolff
Michael Hudson
Michael Parenti
David Harvey
Alan Woods
Guy Debord
Alexander R. Galloway
Manuel DeLanda
Hans-Georg Moeller
Timothy Morton
George Boole
Georg Cantor
Gottlob Frege
Michael Dummett
Graham Priest
Donald Davidson
Hilary Putnam
G.A. Cohen
Hans Sluga
Émile Durkheim
Max Weber
Emil Cioran
Camille Paglia
Andrea Dworkin
Kathy Acker
Katherine Dunn
Raymond Radiguet
Charles Fort
Albert Borgmann
Arthur R. Butz
Grover Furr
Alvin Plantinga
Edward Lee
Alfred Chester
Bill Hopkins
Colin Wilson
Stuart Holroyd
Peter Kolosimo
Stewart Home
James Moffat
Jonathan Bowden
Joseph Sciambra
Randy Shilts
Guy Hocquenghem
Harry Hay
Anthony Ludovici
Arthur Rimbaud
Eric S. Raymond
Peter Milligan
James Nulick
Peter Coffin
Paul Curran
R.D. Laing
Michel Onfray
Wolfgang Iser
Fredric Jameson
Steven Heller (he taught me in graduate school)
Peter Schjeldahl
Robert Christgau
Simon Reynolds
Bob Larson
Peter Popoff
Rev. Leroy Jenkins
Martin H. Greenberg
Nicholas Goodrick-Clarke
Georges Simenon
John Patric
Flann O'Brien
Ernie Pyle
François de La Rochefoucauld
Jean Anthelme Brillat-Savarin
Debito Arudou
Akinokure (Agnostic)
Patrick Roesle
Brett Stevens
James Joyce, but only his novel Finnegans Wake.
…And a bunch of other writers that I have read throughout the years and only remember the name comes up through wisdom and citation…